Another half term's over. I'm sorry I haven't written anything in ages, not like I didn't have time... I just didn't feel like writing I guess. So, let's get to the point, kiddos what has been goin' on? To start off with my grades, wich aren't too baneful, I got C&B's in overall...well everything. Goal for next half term: B&A's. I really wanna do this right, I mean this is our last year and I want to do sixth form in a new school. My grades aren't the only thing that I managed to improve lately, I also got some new friends. There's this chinese girl (who's Casey's bestie, btw) I never thought I'd ever have a conversation with her, since she's really quiet,really shy, and,oh well, really smart. Jesus, the girl gets A*s in every subject!!! Sometimes I wish I could be like her... not chinese of course, but as I mentioned before I need to get good grades. What else? Oh, Casey's turned 16, and although I wasn't invited to her "night out" with her friends, I still got her something and she seemed quite happy with that. I like hanging around with her, when she's in a good mood,because she can be a very fun person, only if I hadn't found out about... Ok, I'll get to that later. Oh, very well then, but only 'cause you insist. So as for 'A' I'm not really sure how I feel about him, and I'm even more unsure about how he feels about me. On Wednesday in maths, as usual, I was looking for my book in the box, actually they all ended piled up on Luis's table, anyway he came over, I gave him his book which he thanked, but instead of going back to his desk he stayed and fished out my book as well (which was in front of my face the entire time) and asked if I didn't want it, I told him that was my old book, only since I had my functional braces on my tone sounded colder than I wanted, jesus, why can't I learn how to speak in these? However he slowly placed my book back into the lot, then somehow found my current one and asked if that was mine, I nodded, I think I said "thanks" as well, and headed back to my seat. Arhg! Why can't he decide to break the ice when I'm actually in a good mood? Why couldn't he do that when I didn't have braces? (I got them this monday, so...) Good thing he has them as well , plus he's so cute when he shows his braces off *sigh* Hopefully I didn't scare him away, at least I think I didn't, 'cause the next day, in science not only he came to stand right next to me when we where about to go in, nor I felt his eyes on my face a few times,but I'm pretty sure he wanted to give us another shot, ok, this is how it went; Lennie came over to my table to nick a pencil and turns out 'A' needed one as well, to draw his graph I suppose, so he asked Lennie (when he was over there with them) to ask me if I had one for him. Oh my,my, I would've been more than glad to give him a darn pencil, only if he had came over, or even shout across the room just to let me know. But no, eventually he got one out from his bag (so he did have a pencil) *wink,wink* I hope when we go back he'll keep trying. I really do. Oh, I almost forgot the interesting part. So,erm,yeah, Casey has  a crush on him. I only found out on thrusday's afternoon session. I think she wanted me to find out. It was like a guessing game and every clue led to him. C'mmon who in our maths class in taller than me? What's even worse she admitted it. And I decided not to care. I mean if it would come down to that 'A' would probably run away in the sunset with Casey. God, it's not even funny. Still somewhere I hope, by the time we get back, we just might have a new seating plan in maths and I just might be put next to him. Yeah, dream on. Reminder to myself: I'm there to study, because I have to get good grades and go to another school to do sixth form, and graduate, and then go to UNI, and go clubbing,make bad decisions about other guys,get some new friends, and by then I probably won't even remember the tall,retractable,but beautiful boy who I spent my last year in high school longing for.

"The best kiss is the one that has been exchanged a thousand times between the eyes, before it reaches the lips..."