Oh my, what a day it has been. I was so relieved when I learnt that science is going to stay the same as well,except we'll have a new teacher. Or I'll soon have an even newer one. The problem is - as I forgot to mention - for my GCSE science grade I got a D (Yr.10) and now Clara (our new master of physics) wants me to join a BTEC group,aka. she wants me to move down a class. Thankfully its optional,so I guess I don't have to unless I want to, although she did seem pretty determined about it. Oh God,I don't want to take BTEC course, I know I should've done better on that exam,but please, I'm not that dumb. I don't want to degrade myself to spend Year 11 doing biology. It would be easier, I know,but still... the class I've been put into looks alright. There's only one (ok,two) member of the lot who I'd be glad to see replaced. Interesting she was on the list too. If there's any reason for this complication I hope it's her one-way-ticket to another SC group far,far away from me. I did ask her about it, and I have to admit she was quite nice - that one time. So anyway, I wrote an e-mail to my home tutor,see what she thinks. Mmm...other than this everything else was fine. Oh,yes! There's something...not just something,someone I wanted to tell you about.

Are you familiar with the feeling when a certain person, who you've always ignored, becomes also the person you can't take your mind off. Not necessarily in a pleasant way. He just has this whole different atmosphere around him, whenever he walks into the room,looks towards your direction or even chews his nails. You're unsure,because you don't want to notice these little details,but you do,and god,you just can't help it. I can't help it. He's the kind of soul you want behind your back,following your steps,getting closer with each and every move, despite the fact that he doesn't seems to have a warm personality. It's the opposite. Pray,would you blame yourself for wanting to get to know the boy behind the mask? Especially, when meeting his eyes again is the first and last thing you want at the same time.                                                               

Well that was poetic. Long story short; there's this kid,who's starting to creep me out with his constant "staring" but to be honest,lately I thought he was kinda cute, and tried to requite his small little considerations,like letting him in front of me (although I was the last person in the line), giving him a chance to open up by chatting...okay, I sort of asked him to throw away my crumpled papers on his way to the bin, or like today, when I asked him to let me one of his felt tip pens he brought with himself,but no, since his moronic buddy asked first he automatically rejected my request,although then he realised that the little cretin already had one,so we can say that he 'kindly' gave it to me. Still I can't keep track on the occasions when I felt his stare on my face. Does that really mean anything, or am I just imagining something I sort of want? Am I paranoid? Or is it just one more reason why I want to stay in the same science class...