Hello, I am...Oh,right, it's a secret, anyway I'm the owner of this blog and this would be my first post ever. I always tought it should be very special and defineatly interesting,but recently I realized there's really nothing fascinating in my life, so I'll just make sure I won't kid anyone, especially not you or myself. Here's the thing; today was our last day of  term and now we have a week off school which is great. Altough I know that week's gonna be a complete waste of time as for me - like usual,huh? Alright, enough of that, let's talk about my day, only in case you're interested. So I guess everyone knows the feeling, when you just walk in the hallway and look at the people around you as they all hurry to get done with whatever they have to, and you wonder If they'd ever care.  They might return your glance or give you a polite smile,but that's it. And someday all those faces are just going to fade away in your memory, it's like one day you're in the same room with them and in the next you have to try real hard to even remember their name or how they looked like. Apart from all this you'll always remember the way they treated you, and whether you liked them or not. I know it's crazy, but I've been in enough schools to know that's always the case. I think everyone should look at people that way, because most of them are just not worth it... They won't stay in your life for long anyway, why should we care then? - Because we live in the present, no matter how much we're looking foward to the good things in the future. Jesus, what am I on about? I thought I was gonna talk about today... Typical. So this is how it goes; I get on the bus,go to school, and pray to look ok in front of the cool kids. Naah' not actually! Let's just say sometimes I give shit, but normally I really don't. Fuck what they think. Speaking of being in school,my favorite subject is english. Not because of the subject itself. It's just the lessons tend to turn out soso hilarious. We got this new teacher (*cough* she's been teaching us for 3 months now *cough*) - and still she has no idea how are we even called,and she certainly doesn't know how to give out something to learn. So we're just talking and messing around. I bet now you're asking yourself what am I doing? Just sitting in my place quietly? - ha I used to! Trying to make a conversation with the others? - onnit! Yes,based on that, this year's been a real roller coaster ride to be honest - I am really trying to socialize. The problem is I never say the right thing at the right time. Never. So there's this guy *wink,wink* he's really funny, but not just 'funny' like you laugh at his lame jokes to impress him, he's a real comedian, and has a sort of childish, yet amazing sense of humor. He's kind of cute as well (young,tall,slender,pale,freckled with dark messy hair cut in a quiff,judgy/dreamy brown eyes, big teeth and with the loveliest smile I've ever seen) - the point is, I've been trying to get his attention, and at first I tought it was working, and by now I've made a complete idiot of myself. Since english isn't my first language I can't alway say things the way I want them to sound (someone in class even mentioned how awkward I am when Im speaking) I guess she was right after all... Anyway, he still talks to me not really often tough - like once a week, and I think - again - I think I catched him looking at me a few times. Of course this is all in my head. He's not interested, he has loads of friends (including girls) and he doesn't even sit behind me anymore in english, altough he could,because no one told him not to, so it was probably his call. I really tried everything. Being funny in his present? - tick, opening up? - tick, Teasing with him? - tick, Making eye contact? - tick, Trying to be friends with his friend group? - double tick. Again it's hopeless, so I decided to give up on the whole thing. I'm glad I met him,because at least now I get what those love songs are all about, and finally they all make sense. Soon enough he'll probably pick from one of the chicks he's usually hangning out in break, and then I'll be able to keep hiding behind my books in the library and trying to be invisible. Sounds pretty stupid, I know. I still hope when we go back after half term, there'll be a new sitting plan in math and maybe we'll sit together again - fat chance of that of course, but who knows... or by some unknown power I become the prettiest girl ever and he won't be able to resist. Haha! Hope you enjoyed this "piece of writing" , see you next time! ;)