As you must have discovered from the title, I started my work experience and I have to admit this is far from what I expected. I wanna open this post with the good things, though and leave all the disadvantages to the end...based on that this is going to be a very short post. So I get to spend my entire day around horses which is awesome, because basically that's what I ever wanted. I even get to ride them sometimes for like half an hour. To be honest the horses are great, I love all of them and it's truly a joy to spend so much time with them. I'm also lucky, because two girls I   know from school are there with me (Amber&Elmo) so I'm not completly alone in this. I guess that's all I'm grateful for now let's see what I don't like - and I have to warn you this is going to be a bit longer. My boss is  this so-called woman, Judith who's mostly with us all day. She knows every horse and pony and she clearly knows what she's doing. Truth to be told, everyone there does, apart from this young girl, maybe in her twenties, called Amy who tends to get into random conversations about herself and her personal life, instead of giving the correct instructions. By the way she's been riding since she was six and she also has a horse on her own. Other than this, she befriends these two girls in our age, who actually happen to be twins and I truly dislike them, anyway Amy's been hooking up with their brother and the girls have no idea. Maybe they do now, I'm not sure. So...yeah, Amy's definitely a strange girl and a bit of a mess. For instance, yesterday while we where collecting the horses from the field, she told us how she's sick of this place and been here forever blahblahblah. The point is she decided to join the army. Oh my, if only you could see how excited she was about this, like while she's been telling the others about her first 2 years of exploring the sites if there's any bomb and I was just literally standing there, holding two horses and thinking "If it's up to me she can go and join the christians or be a nun, I truly don't care." That's what I don't like about this place, the workers there aren't necessarily bright. If I'm honest they don't seem too educated either. They know how to treat the horses and how to muck out their stalls properly, but that's it. I know I'm not a brainbox myself, but hey, if I learnt anything during this week is that I do not want to have a life like theirs in the future. In fact I don't even want to be in that sort of environment or in that community. Don't get me wrong, I love horses and animals to the moon and back, but I'm still a girl. Not a girly girl, but I do care how I look and I like to be clean and feeling pretty. Now, honestly, when do you get a chance to be all that when you spend the whole day cleaning up horse shit,changing their hay nets and running around in the field to catch them or to lead ponies while happy little kids get to actually sit on them, while I'm about to collapse of exhaustion. It's so unfair. Ok, ok I know, I was the one who applied for this job, but I clearly didn't know what I was signing up for. I was really hoping for just a bit more horse riding. Is that really too much to ask for? What's worst is tomorrow I have to go back there and work my ass off, then do the same next week. I have no clue how am I gonna survive this. Wish me luck though, and remember - never-ever-go-to-a-horse-center-for-your-work-experience! No matter how much you love horses.

I have a feeling that this is going to be a really long post. Sorry, guys, but I have to put into words some of the stuff that has been going on in my life since Monday. Where do I even begin? Right, Tuesday; our first lesson was drama, but since a major number of students in the class were missing we barely learned anything. Then maths which was boring as usual, but I'm actually quiet happy with the fact that now I get to share a few notes with two girls next to me. Gosh, I never would have thought that we would get along so well. This was followed by humanities and that's where the exciting actions took place! We got put into small groups (threes) and guess who I had to work with? Yes, that's right - John& him... I think now it's time to give 'him' some sort of name...like...Lennie! It kinda rhymes with his real name and he's been 'petting' me lately, just like that guy with the disability in 'Mice and Men' Haha, that came out weird. So me,John and Lennie had to write this presentation about poverty,LEDCs,debt,aid and all that stuff. Truth to be told it was one of the funniest lessons, because while I was working (lol - I really wasn't, but shhh;-) I actually got a chance to have a conversation with him, meaning we spoke more than two words in half an hour. Yay! And, yeah I totally came down as a total loser with my stupid accent and my lack of knowledge of pronunciations,but still we were really talking! He's so hilarious, I know it annoys me as well that I keep using that word to describe him,but, oh only if you knew...  I'm telling ya' Lennie's the funniest person I've ever met in my life so far. Hmm... I'm not really sure what we were talking about to be honest. Oh, yeah - he kept teasing me the whole time, and since he sat right next to me I got a proper view of his perfect facial features (he's freckles and moody eyes are so attractive,btw) I must have been staring for too long because he burst out complaining, "Stop looking at me!" - it took me one minute to snap back with a probably smart answer which was - "I'm not looking at ya', I don't wanna damage my sight" ;) Okay, maybe I'm not the best with these kinda lines, but hey, John found it sassy. Ha! One point goes to me! While John was trying to sort out our presentation the little silly loony spent the time drawing endless cubes (with faces!!) on his paper. I made a remark on how talented he is (course I didn't mean it) then he went, "Yeah, thank you.." etc. He confirmed that he's doing art (according to him he's the best in the class), so I just quietly mentioned how he's the next Picasso. At first he didn't get my so called joke,so...yeah. Also, I wanted to find out where he's going to work, so (and I'm being smart here again) I asked John first even though I knew what his job was, but then - I think I probably came down condescending - because John *in a sarcastic voice* asked what am I gonna do. Oops. Well, I told them about Loughton Stables and working with horses, now did I have a choice? The guys had a great laugh. That's when I started to get pissed off and I gestured at his work experience, and I seriously never would have guessed that he'll do it in Costa Coffe. Really? In a Cafe house? Wow, fascinating! Anyway, then they spent the whole time nagging me with "what's so good about cleaning up horse shit?" Ugh! Well, that's all that happened basically. Wednesday was alright,but so boring - can't even be bothered to go through it. On the other hand today aka. Thursday was super fun! Especially double english. Before we walked into the classroom I stayed behind for a bit to play around with my phone when guess who comes to kick me up from the floor. Oh, and remember when I mentioned stroking me is his new hobby. Well today wasn't an exception either, when I bent down to look for my book in the box I noticed someone softly rubbing my arm and when I turned into his direction he was making the cutest face. Okay, I'm stopping, you've must have thrown up all your dinner on the monitor while readiing this. So we spent the whole lesson with reading. There's really nothing much I can say about the rest of the day. Oh, and by the way tomorrow's sports day, but I decided not to go,umm... I'm just not in the mood of spending another day with my lovely classmates in the fields. So I guess I'll see them after two weeks. Wish me luck for my work experience, actually now I'm looking foward to it.

p.s: I'm not sure how much longer am I gonna bear this temperature. It's so hot!

" Hot summer nights, mid July
When you and I were forever wild
The crazy days, city lights
The way you'd play with me like a child. "

Our last week officially started then we have two weeks off (work experience), yay! Hmm... Usually - for everyone - Monday's the hardest day of all, but I've always been an exception... until now. Don't get me wrong it wasn't that bad and at the end of the day I even had some fun.  It just didn't begin well... I had a fight with my mum on how I didn't eat anything on sunday. Why? Why does she always have to do this all over again? Yeah, I admit, I do want to lose weight,but I know what I'm doing for God's sake! Anyway I think I managed to convince her today that I'm not anorexic and I don't intent to be in the future. I just wanna lose about 10 pounds that's all... So I'll start again tomorrow, great! -.-" Hope she won't nag me about it this time. Changing the subject, school's was alright, even though in our first session John mentioned my little disagreement with that fat cow. Speaking of her I think she got the message nice and clear, because even though I was in the position when I'm normally shout at (I interrupted someone while reading) she kept quiet unlike the others. Ha! I really do suggest her to keep up, or I'll bite. I'm not kidding. Oh, and this all happened in english - didn't see that coming,did ya? ;) What else? Um, that little stupid-haired idiot made me trip while I was giving out the books. God, at least he knows I still exist. Our last session was D.T textiles and OMG - I just love our new classroom. Not something I can say about the new teacher. Her name's Nicola and let's just say she's way more strict than Emma's ever been. Gonna miss her. The lesson was quiet hilarious - me and mmm.... Casey had too much fun with the glue. She offered me to shake hands with her and guess what - it was covered with glue. Yup. Towards the end of the lesson I was drowning in glue stick, but I suppose it was worth it, I had too much fun. So, yeah - I guess that's all. See you next time, hope you had a great day too!

I've never would have thought someone, anyone could actually call me that,but you know, first time for everything,right? The worst part of all that everybody was able to hear it. Everybody in the room! Then after the big "ouuu" which was followed by awkward silence, the teacher came over and patiently explained how important is to control our temper blahblahblah... While I tried my best to look cooled down and calm, and rather amused which only made things worse. *sighs* May I ask why? What have I ever done to that so-called "feminine creature"? Have I called her anything? Names? I must say I could make up some real mind-blowing riddles about her appearance,because - and 100% honest - she's hideous. Not just ugly, hideous. Maybe I'm saying this to make myself feel better,but it is the truth. And I'm not gonna describe her, 'cause I don't want to scare away my readers. I think I don't even need to add that since that little indulgence I've been feeling like crap all day, and I don't really know why. I shouldn't care about twats like her. It still bothers me though... Anyway, it'll all go away at some point and I can be my old self again, because when I got home I done stuff that I'm not really proud of, including lying to mum about how I ate loads today - which is not quiet true. I don't want to make this post sound depressed as well, so I'll just mention how sweet that little cutie 's been teasing/annoying me all day and borrowed about five pens and how none of them were good enough so he always came back to my desk for more. Haha, sometimes I wish I could be that carefree and light-hearted. I truly envy him. He's so lovable, yet  he can be incredibly frustrating and still everybody adores him. Is it beacuse he's a boy? Is it because he's a good looking boy? Or it's just me being pathetic... Well, I don't really have the mood to write more (*moody bitch alert*) so I hope you had a better day than I had. Wish me luck for tomorrow, I'll really need it.

Don't ask why I picked this title... Let's just say it's one of his best and sweetest lines that I'll probably never forget. J'heez, it's been a tiresome,cloudy day and I'm just starting to hate people more and more at school. Especially this girl who acts like a spoiled brat 24/7. She always finds something to moan about, and she says "Ohmygod!" - way too many times. Other than this she hates me, altough I never 'ever' gave her one good reason to do so. For instance she keeps looking at me like I'm some kind of alien. God bless her, I hope someone accidently (or on purpose)  pours some lovely,yummy glue stick in her hair, so that she'll have no choice, but to get rid of all of her hair, so that we won't be able to witness anymore how she tosses her flat blond ponytail around. Ok, that felt good, don't worry I'm stopping now. Let's talk about the good stuff, shall we? I got my exam result back today (maths) and had a chat with my teacher (the neurotic one) - but he said some nice things, like how he's happy with my results at the moment, but knows I can do better than that. It was pretty inspiring, so... yeah, next time hopefully I'll score a C instead of a D. Ouch! Naaah' I'm not quite happy with my grade to be honest, but I'm glad at least he is.  By all means I have plenty of time to prepare for my exams in November and I know I'll do well. The only thing I'm truly worried about is science. God, I hate that subject! Oh, and that's nothing, I hate the people I have to work with during the lessons. They're whether idiots or terribly rude. Well, it's all gonna end someday,right? Hmm... I'm being a bit too negative today, more than usual, I guess that's why my mum wants me to start doing yoga. Other than the dead boring science lesson everything was fine. Oh, by the way, have I mentioned that he's being so adorable lately? Like since friday he can always find a way, okay an utterly hilarious way of saying "hi" without actually saying it. He's so cheeky and I know now, I truly like him (umm I knew this a long while ago) anyway even towards the end of the lesson he slightly poked me again, when I turned around he made the cutest face ever! Oh, only he'd actually start talking to me for real... Alright, enough of that, tomorrow's another day and due to my lovely time table I'll be dying 'till my mum arrives to pick me up. So, yeah, I need rest.




Please be true... Okay, have a peaceful sleep and a good tomorrow, mate - thank you for listening to me. ;)

" Set me free, leave me be. 
I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me. "